Month: January 2017

The first few of those Hotel Days were filled with I don’t remember what. I know we tried to make the best of it. I know that I was feeling pretty tired. Like in dead dog tired. Exhausted. My cell phone kept ringing with requests.  At one point I simply handed it over to my […]

The Hotel Days seemed just as open ended as those Hospital Days. Again, I had no clue how long we would be staying. The comforting thing was that at that time, I was surrounded by my family. A handful of them. Those who were right there beside me.  The family that sticks like glue.  I […]

As I look back on my experience this past summer, my mind has separated it all into three segments of time. I’ve even given each a title (of course I have…I’m so melodramatic like that, if you haven’t noticed thus far). Segmenting time and giving each a title has somehow made it easier for me […]

There was a time in my life that I pored over this idea of Grief. I studied and read most everything I could get my hands on.  I still do. It’s a little bizarre to some, but death and dying has sort of been my thing. Not in a macabre way.  No.  Not like that. […]

Before I hit Publish on my last post, I asked my husband to read it first. This is a big deal because he hasn’t read anything I’ve posted yet. Not one post. He told me that he would read them when I was ready. I guess I was ready.  That, and I wanted to run […]

I just went through my Facebook feed. I have to admit that it put me in a bad place.  Emotionally. And look, I’m a big girl. A grown woman.  I don’t have to scroll through it if it is too hard. I get that. I don’t even have to have Facebook if it sometimes puts […]

Not even a block away from the hospital stood the hotel where I slept. The one I decided I needed to go to after nights of trying to sleep upright in that rock hard, noncompliant recliner that sat in the corner of my son’s hospital room. This hotel is one of those extended stay types. […]

The past few days I’ve stopped writing to read over all I’ve written.  I cannot believe that I’ve written thirty three posts. Man, that’s a lot of time and space dedicated so far. I haven’t told the story in its entirety yet…because there are so many things woven in and between and beyond that need […]

I had to make some hard phone calls then. It wasn’t lost on me that this is how it all started.  How it all began. That day a few weeks prior when the phone call reached me. How easy it is these days.  No need to dig for phone numbers scribbled out on scraps of […]

The entire room seemed to swirl round and round just then. I felt myself being sucked into the sea of despair. I would not go down, though.  I wouldn’t allow myself to sink. So I anchored myself at the end of his bed and could not move. It was over now.  This part at least. […]